Pneumonia

H is now hospitalized with pneumonia.  He developed violent chills last night after spending hours yesterday having a cat scan.  He was admitted in the early morning hours after I drove him back to the hospital.  He is on iv antibiotics.  I got back home at 2 am.   Did you know that people with diabetes get  pneumonia more often than the general population?  Poor glucose control increases the risk as does longer duration of diabetes?  Just another complication of this disease.

Windowless Waiting Rooms

I went with H yesterday and spent 4 hours sitting in a windowless waiting room with no phone and no wifi connections.  I hate those windowless waiting rooms.  They can be suffocating.  Add to  it the lack of connections to able to get work done and it becomes even more wasted time.  I could have spent the morning at the Louvre and seen as much of him as I did sitting in that room.  I did go outside and sat on a wall and did my work.  This particular hospital, while part of a major medical school complex. has no concern for waiting families.  Another one, around the corner, is far more caring for families.  He goes there too so I know.  I could write the Michelin guide for hospitals in my city. 

Next week, he has a cat scan scheduled and I am trying to opt out from going to that one and sitting around for hours in another windowless room. 

H meanwhile is sluggish and lethargic but not raging.  The med change has helped.  I find that if I am not dealing with him and his problems constantly as in all day every day, it affords me the time to rebuild my life.  Notice I said my life, not his.  He is unfortunately consigned to the old before their time, sick or as his doctor said "your husband is a very sick man" category.  I will take care of him and he can come along for the rebuilding ride, but ultimately it is all up to me to reclaim my life.  I will not, however, sacrifice my being to his illness.  simple as that

Going Nuclear

Tomorrow is the day hubby goes nuclear.  That is, he is about to be tested by nuclear medicine.  Needless to say he is nervous. Can not say that I blame him.  We are  told that he will be glowing in the dark for four hours.

I will bring a lot of work with me so that, at least, I can put the time to productive use.  I am back to work full time and loving it.  I went to the next state  to the south where we have income property today in order to get it back in shape, hopefully rented and hopefully giving us some income.  I have 3 vacant apartments which can if and when rented mean a lot better balance sheet.

The home we are moving to is ours and a contractor is preparing it for our Nov.. 1 move in date.  I can hardly wait.   Just need to get thru tomorrow and then back to getting out of this abyss.

Still More Tests

The ultra sound found an abnormality in his parathyroid.  He freaked.  I was at a seminar when he had the ultrasound.  He was not pleased that I was not there.  Too bad.  Scan scheduled for next week.  Four hours long.  I would love to dodge it, but no such luck it seems.  He is terrified.  I just want to get this over and the sooner the better.  I need to work and move.  He is sick, has been sick for years and unfortunately will never be young and well again.  The surgery may help some, but will never be the complete fix for all that ails him.

Sad as it is to say, after all these years, my feelings have changed and I am determined not to be sucked into his world.  I have planned my escape and it is working.  Keep your fingers crossed for me, please.

More Tests

H is scheduled for more tests Thursday and friday this week before seeing the surgeon.  I have a mandatory seminar for my professional license renewal those days so he will be going by himself.  I am looking forward to going to the seminar and having some me time away from his constant health care problems.  I have rejoined the working world and we a moving in 6 weeks away from this elderly housing.  I have rejoined the working adult world and left the elderly invalid world of hubby to him.

Surgery in the Future

The 2nd endo called today to have H schedule yet more tests before probable  surgery in the next month or two.  H needs scan and ultrasound on parathyroid.  The adjustment of meds has helped and we are told this parathyroid can affect adversely every system in a diabetic,s body.  Here is hoping that if he does need the surgery it will help H a lot.